Cincinnati

Well, it's official. The Match was last Thursday, and we're headed to Cincinnati for the next 5 years. The program there is awesome, so Pete will get really good training. I am still trying to get used to the idea. Pete and I are looking at buying a house. I don't know how anyone affords it! We'll have to see if we can come up with something. Abby is crying, so I had better run...

I love you, Dad

My dad passed away one year ago today. I wanted to express how much I miss him. We all miss him. I'm always thinking of different things and wanting to call and tell him about them. He was always interested in what was going on in my life. He was the one I went to for advise on so many things. Tomorrow is Match day for Pete, and I wish he were here to tell me how proud he is of us, and how wherever we end up is the best place ever. I wish he could hold Abby and tell me that I'm a good mom like he always did (even though it sometimes feels the opposite.) He was always so encouraging and positive. He would tell me, "Don't sweat the small stuff; and it's all small stuff" when I would get too overwhelmed. I love and miss my dad so much, but am so grateful for the memories, testimony, and example he left me with.

Going to make it...

Today was a pretty good day. I had one of those days where I felt like, "Hey, I can do this. I'm going to make it and everything will be okay." Having a baby is crazy, at least for me; probably for most people. The lack of sleep, hormones, frumpiness, trying to get the weight off, low energy, baby crying, trying to heal (my incision is taking forever to heal!), feeling like everyone else is normal but you, the misery of breast feeding, etc. But man I love this little baby! She is just such a part of our family now. I'm so glad we have her! So I think I'm going to make it. I am out of the "funk" for the most part and I think I can do this craziness called life/motherhood.